Being a Grown up can really stink!

Jeff found out yesterday that there is a 25% chance he will be laid off in the next 4-8 weeks. Great. Exactly what I wanted to hear. I love the Lord. I really do, but I'm scared. What if this time He decides that I don't deserve his protection? I know the Lord loves me but sometimes it's hard for me to grasp just how much. It's hard for me not to ask myself why does the Lord love me. What have I done for Him or His Kingdom lately? I guess I get stuck on the 'performance' based love and so I feel like I've failed my Lord tremendously. Anyway, I am praying for the Lord's protection during this uncertain time. I would appreciate you praying for us as well.

Another subject... I am starting BACK to school (again). I have a little over 2 years left! I am getting my degree in Elem Education and I'm totally excited! Not because I am just DYING to work but because it will be wonderful for my family. The part I am most excited about is that I don't even have to leave McKinney to obtain it. Collin College (community college) now offers a Higher Education program so I can get the degree from Texas A&M Commerce at the McKinney campus. Woo hoo. This will be such a blessing to my famiy.